Perfect End to a Not-so-Perfect Day

Today was not a good day for me. I was so emotionally and spiritually down. I kept thinking of all the bad things that have happened in the past and was focusing on everything negative. On my lunch break at work, I called Sean and just cried. I didn't have a great night last night, I was tossing and turning just thinking about things. I didn't really know why I was getting into such a horrible slump. After I talked to Sean, I felt a little better but there's only so much one can say, you have to be the one to change your attitude and outlook on things. So I said a prayer in my car before returning back to the office, I just needed something to help me. When I got back, I was still finding it hard to focus or just be there. I spoke with a few coworkers, but I was just not feeling any better. Then on my way home, it hit me. I just need to stop focusing on what everyone else thinks and stop trying to be what everyone wants me to be. I am me and me for a reason. I have a wonderful life, and I need to be happy and grateful for that. As I was driving, I was just thinking and praying a lot, and when I pulled up to my apartment I decided not to go in with my poopy-pants attitude that I was having all day. Owen doesn't need to see/remember his mommy being down, he needs to have a fun/happy mommy. So that's exactly what I did and I will have to say, my night was a lot better than my day.

Sean went out with some friends tonight, so it was just me and Owen. We started our evening just relaxing and having a snack. Then we decided to go for a walk. It was about 6:35ish when we got to the train tracks and Owen was really excited. He wanted to see a train. Unfortunately, I don't know the train schedule and had no idea when the next one would come by. So, we waited. lol. Owen was so excited waiting by the train tracks for a train. He's really in to "things that go" right now. He loves trucks, cars, trains, motorcycles, etc. So, as we waited, he was pointing out every vehicle that drove by. Bicycles and skateboards, to semitrucks and even a horse! I couldn't believe that he was still in such a good mood, we had been out there for over 20 minutes! (here we are waiting!)
Finally...7:00pm A TRAIN!! Owen was so excited...and a little nervous. I told him it'd be loud, so he covered his ears. and the train zoomed by! He was so excited, he wouldn't stop smiling. THen, as we were crossing over the tracks to go home, the red lights started flashing again! ANOTHER TRAIN! lol...Owen was ready for this one. His ears were already covered and he was smiling so big waiting for the train to come by. And this one was even faster than the last. Owen let out a loud, "WOW!" He was so happy. We were finally able to walk home now that all the trains were gone. I decided to take him to IHOP for dinner since kids eat free right now. When we go there he demanded his juice! Lol. He even picked out his own meal (by pointing to the picture) and I let him choose mine (also by pointing to a picture). It was a lot of fun. He sat in booster seat next to me, so he felt pretty cool. He said "hi" and "bye" to everyone there. It was just a good evening for Owen and me. I really needed it. (us at dinner)

WHen we got home it was bath time. We stopped by Seth and Julie's house to say hello first. That was nice, I love having family so close. When it was time for his bath, he was being so silly. He would stand up and the jump on to his bottom! It scared my so much, but he was having so much fun. He was just being a little angle all night.

After his bath, I got him ready for bed. Sean came home and we read a book together as a family. It was so much fun. I know Owen really enjoyed it. He didn't really want to go to bed, but after some play time, he did. He was so good tonight. I feel so lucky. After a long day of being down, all I needed was my family to lift me up. And it didn't even end there! After Owen went to bed, Sean and I watched a movie! Monsters Vs. Aliens. It was so fun and well needed. We haven't done that in a while. I am just so grateful for my family and the joy they bring to my life. I am so glad that they are all I need to be happy. Today was perfect because of them.